You asked me out on a date one day while we were in class. I spent an hour getting ready since it was my first date. I wore my new outfit from Hollister and even carried a purse. My hair was straightened and my mom had helped me with some makeup. Our parents dropped us off at the movie theater so we could have this little date. I brought a popcorn bucket so we could eat a lot of popcorn. You paid for our tickets and our drinks and we went into our theater. Before the movie started, you showed me an easy way to share the popcorn. You put the bucket against one of your legs and then one of my legs and that's where it stayed for the whole movie. We watched One Missed Call and nothing happened. We just sat there and watched the movie. I was expecting maybe a little bit of hand holding or an arm around my shoulders, but you didn't make a move. I was somewhat disappointed but yet not at the same time. After the movie, I pulled my phone out to call my mom to pick me up. The two of us laughed because my phone told me that I had one missed call. How ironic, right?
I went home thinking that nothing was going to happen and that you didn't like me. I called my red headed friend and told her exactly what happened. She was pretty disappointed too. However, while I was talking to her, you ended up calling me. I told her I had to go and I clicked over to where you were waiting to talk to me. I was surprised at what you had to say, really. You had told me that you had a really great time that night and that you really wanted to do it again. We talked a bit more about our date and then you said that you had to go to sleep. The two of us said good bye and we hung up.
The weekend went by and you and I texted on and off. When Monday came, however, I wasn't feeling up to par. My sickness was being a bitch that morning so I skipped school. I remember being on the couch watching Days of our Lives when I got a text from you. You were asking where I was since I wasn't in our science class. When you found out that I was at home sick you kept asking if I was alright. Then it got serious: you told me that you had an amazing time on our date and that you like me a lot. I really didn't know what to say...I was really shocked. So when you asked me to be your girlfriend, I said yes. We texted a few times while you were in class but when you had to go you told me that you loved me. Really? After one date and within an hour of us dating you drop the 'L' word? Well...with me being young and just really surprised on you saying that...I said it back. How stupid of me.
I would go to school on and off. I would wake up and go to school at 7:35 every day but by lunch time I would feel so sick that I couldn't concentrate. My grandpa or step dad would pick me up from school and take me home. You would always text me during Environmental Science and make sure I was okay if I wasn't in class. On the days I was in class, we would sit next to each other and talk. One time one of your friends talked about watching Transformers with her boyfriend and all of the sexy things they did together at certain parts. It was pretty gross...especially since her boyfriend and I used to be best friends in elementary school.
One day you were dropped off at the elementary school my mom works at and we helped her in her classroom. You flirted with me a lot while we were there and I remember blushing like an idiot. You were invited to go out to eat with my family and I at the Chinese restaurant by my house. My grandparents, my mom, and my sister seemed to like you a lot. That made me pretty happy since I was really nervous that they wouldn't like you. What a relief. After dinner my sister, you, and I went outside to get into the car. The car was locked and it was freezing outside. You were holding onto me since I was cold and was sick. I told my sister to run inside and tell my mom to unlock the car. Surprisingly, she did as she was told. Once she left you looked at me and leaned in for a kiss. I'll give you a play by play on what was going through my mind at that moment:
This is it. I'm going to have my first kiss! Alright, Sam, calm it down. This is no big deal. Oh God...he's leaning in...alright...just go for it. This...this...this is...this is IT?! Are you fucking kidding me?! This is what I was waiting for sixteen years?! I thought I was supposed to get sparks and feel extremely happy? This is not what I expected. Oh God...is that his tongue?! Ew. What the fuck is wrong with this guy?! Thank God that's over!
Yeah. Thanks. My first kiss and you shove your tongue down my throat. You're a fucking sick-o. I had told you before that I had never kissed anyone before and you went and made my first time horrible. Thanks a million.
Days went by and we were still boyfriend and girlfriend. I was still sick and trying to find some way to get better but nothing seemed to help. Pretty soon it was the week of Valentine's Day. I was thinking about breaking up with you but since you had said that you were really happy, I stayed in the relationship. Word got back to you though from someone that I was going to break up with you. We had a tiny fight and almost broke up but we didn't.
You ended up coming over to my house on Valentine's Day since I made you a spaghetti dinner all by myself. You bought me a bunch of lotion and a stuffed animal of a lamb for a gift. I bought you Axe Body Spray since I had no clue what to get you. The two of us sat at my dining room table and had a candlelight dinner. After dinner we went into my basement and played Guitar Hero and Dance Dance Revolution. You beat my ass in Guitar Hero but I beat yours in Dance Dance Revolution. I had my neighbor come over because I wasn't so sure if I could be alone with you or not. But as the night progressed I told her to go home and I was going to text her if I needed her to come back over. After she left you and I started watching Transformers. I cannot believe that you started making moves at the exact same time in the movie as your friend was talking about during school. You kept shoving your tongue down my throat and touching me all over. I was really uncomfortable. And the fact that you asked me to have sex with you? Yeah, no. I barely knew you! What made you think that I would just give my virginity to you? I don't really remember the rest of the night but I know you left around midnight.
I left to visit my family in New York a day or two later. While I was there I got a text from you saying that you wanted to break up. I was kind of sad that you broke up with me but I think that was because I liked the idea of having a boyfriend. We stopped talking all together and when school started up again, things got even more complicated. You started talking to one of my good friends; the one that your best friend really liked. You know? You were such an ass hole to him. I mean, yeah, him and I dated at one point but he was still one of my good friends...and he was one of yours. In fact, you told him that you would talk to my good friend for him to see if she would go out with you. Oh no, in stead, you asked her out for you. She said yes and you kissed her right in front of him. Do you know how much he cried and how much he hated you after that? Complete and utter dick...that's what you are.
I tried telling my good friend what an ass hole you really were. Especially since you spread a rumor around the school saying that I wouldn't have sex until I was married. Not that it really mattered since people really didn't care but it was still somewhat hurtful. My good friend and I stopped talking because of you and I hated you for that. In fact, you started up a bunch of drama and it made me so angry. I tried to tell her that all you wanted was sex and she said that she would ask. When she asked, you said no; she believed you and grew even further away from me. However, you went back on your word and tried to have sex with her. She broke up with you right on the spot. The two of us got back together and she apologized for everything. We even started up a rumor about you...actually...it wasn't a rumor since it was true. We told everyone that you were a horrible kisser. It's true too! You missed our mouths all the time and shoved your tongue down our throats. Fucking gross, dude.
When I started dating my now ex boyfriend you told him that he needed break up with me right away. Apparently you told stories about me to him and I'm very glad that he didn't listen to you. I talked to him about it and told him your whole story...two years after it happened. Little did I know that your girlfriend was sitting behind me the whole time. She told you everything I said and you got really pissed off. You even threatened me at one of our high school football games. You got up in my face and told me to never speak to you or of you again. If I did, apparently you were going to beat the shit out of me. You called me fat, ugly, and a fucking liar. You denied everything that happened so you could look good in front of your girlfriend. You're absolutely terrible.
It was awkward our senior year since we had a class together. The people I sat with were good friends with you so you ended up sitting kiddie corner from me. We even did group projects together since I didn't want to be left out of the group of people I knew. When I had two of them come over to my house, I told them everything. They had no idea that we even dated our freshman year of high school. Oh well, I guess you wanted to erase that chapter of your life as bad as I did.
I absolutely hate that when I get older and have kids, that they will ask me who my first kiss was. I will always remember your name and your horrible and sloppy kiss that you gave me that night in the Chinese restaurant parking lot. I will always remember how you put your nasty tongue in my mouth. I always wished that you had gotten sick from kissing me, but you never did. I hate that you were my first kiss...I honestly and truly do. But there's nothing I can do to change that and you'll forever be in my memory...unfortunately.
With disappointment and an ugly memory,
Samantha
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